every doubt
every judgment,
every question that's going through my head,
and every blood cell full of fury that's flowing through my veins down a single of peice of paper....
It would catch fire.
And I would watch it burn.
I would watch it turn to red
turn to orange,
to ash.
If I had the chance the see you
and tell you every single thing I have to say,
and ask you every question and confront you about every
doubt
feeling
and most of all deceit
and press your face against my chest and let you hear those blood cells flow, I would.
I can't believe you.
And I can't believe what you did
and what you made everyone believe,
I can't believe how you called me your best friend.
Remember when you told me you thought I was God's most beautiful creation?
I don't even believe in God.
And I no longer believe in you.
You don't know that I know this and you thought I never would.
If I were confront you, you would lie to me. You would lie to me. And you would do it to my face. Or better yet, you would apologize.
but your not sorry.
and I know this.
You've once again proved to me that people are all the same.
And you're just like everyone else.
You lie, You lie, You cheat, and you lie some more.
Thank you for showing me you can't be trusted.
but who am I too talk? I hurt you just as much as you hurt me.
I want to say I hate you.
But the truth is, I don't know if I ever could.
I'm not going to lie, I'll miss our friendship and our love and our so called 'honesty'.
I'll miss the old times but I'll keep in mind there will never be anymore.
I remember telling you that I trusted you.
Above most, at that.
And you told me that you trusted me too.
I don't trust you.
and you no longer trust me.
but you know what.
I no longer care.
you don't have power over me.
you cant break me down hard enough
to make me come to you and apologize.
I did break down
I broke down hard.
I realized what people you love can do to you.
you have me wrapped around your finger and you dont even know it.
and you really couldnt even care.
but one day when your alone
you'll think of those times.
you will.
and you'll regret.
You knew exactly what you were doing
and you knew...
exactly.
what it would do to me.
There's no apology in the world that will ever make me think twice.
and i mean this
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