Tuesday, March 17, 2009

#1 im grateful for my fast computer. shi its fast


listen
type
dont worry about what your going to remember
and what your going to forget
these things happen for a reason.

ahhhhh
roller coaster
im falling im falling
i love this
roller coaster really fast
falling
falling
dramamine
spining
stramminie
dramamame



now im shaking
now im shaking like my chair
is fibrating really slowly
an old chair
I dream of a fathers chair

something old weathered like in bus lightyear the person who sits in the chair when woody runs in. drunk an old father who hates his son or wants to smokepot still nostalgic father of pot fat black beard not shaved greasy eats alot had blue angry sad weathered eyes. him and the sun had some memories (skin)

pay attention to your artistic side,
and your rememberance side.
like how you remember to spell words for a test
like remembering how to spell shoe lace
you have to think of a converse looking shoe and lace on a small french little girls dress

dont not pitch in these ideas to a group
its YOUR INSPIRATION!!!
the crazy way you remember certain things
even if its really dumb, no body will understand you.
no body will get you.
they will be lying if they say they do.


thoughts:
its the most exciting
cool interesting
peice of art
its sacred
its beautiul
its truly truly you



remember how you truly feel like yourself,
not the actor you are pretending to be
your flowing out of this bottle
this bottle, she introduces real rachel in a story telling to the actual person who is sitting here typing this here document. The energies escaping threw the tips of your fingers.

as pathetic as these things are.
they are true.
and they are real.
we are humans.
we radiate patheticism


sit back
close your eyes
hit the switch
type illegaly under parental rule
on your blue hazy mac white clear frosty* mac computer close your eyes, keep your ipod on nutral songs, close your eyes, the city lights and the lake and the mountains and the clouds and the dark navy blue midnight skies. street lamps which bring back high school love memories. And relax.

realaxing
relaxing
relaxing
its dark behind me
but I eel like im looking in to a light of inspiration
into a light of myself
an inner experience
when your brain figures out who you are



DONT OPEN YOUR EYES. THIS IS SACRED. THIS IS THE NEW PRAYER YOU WILL BE LEARNING.


breatheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


nostalgia
streets
lamps
turning
talking
long drives
when id talk
like ceri
or alex
over by andrews house
turning
turning
that weird octogon elephant shape- its an elephant because it is grey today.
lets ask jackie about this shape :) - whos jackie? the reader might ask... tell them its in the glossary. you HAVE to read this book once ordered by law. it will sound crazy and rediculous. but read it again the second time and use the glossary. TAKE NOTEs! -or not.

smoke a bowl in the middle of the book
read again
read
read

memorize the glosssary
the terms the new vocab you will be learning today kids says miss wilson


ah miss wilson.
you bitch
you think your an innocent looking teacher.
You wake up every morning and you lie to yourself.
you know who you are.
who are you trying to fool.
your eyes are dead and poisoned with hate

fuck you.


roll your head back into your shoulders
around and around comorting eelings
like someoone ticking or rubbing your back
or hugging you. like my mom used to do.
hmm

hold on.
we need to check for cellphoneless emily.
to see if she is on myspace.


im going to fill out a a survey on myspace
its going to be hilarious
(post here lateR)


kids dont ever think about the bad, like tripping out and when your parents walk in, everyone knows it sucks, stop thinking about it. lets all go to a place lets all go be hippies we'll go to woodstock and we will have no worries and have our best tripps in our lives.

no more getting caught.
congradulations...

your onto a wonderfull life my friend... now go........................................................................................ go into your high




im going to go fill out this bulletin I stole from beth!, ha hold on one moment.




I cheat on everything.



Questioneer:
What was your worst mistake in your life?
a dumb one including a boy.

but I live on as a
soldier.



last thing that made you sad?
parental units.
natzi's they are!

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
oh goodness..
that would feel awfully weird. (said in alice in wonderlands voice)


How was today?
bla
tired
hurry
sh​iii
birthday!​
pattysday!​
robefore
mathcla​ss
listen to jenni​ngs jokes
take eas​y test
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a crazy thing i did in high school:
GO TO ALBERTSONS BY BLOCKBUSTER AND TARGET HIGH AND PUT GLASSSES ON AND WALK AROUND. I SHOULD BUY A PAIR OF THESE....





Are you going anywhere for the next summer?

whatever road takes me, for now i am unsure of that answer sir. my appologies.


Are you happy with yourself?
tapped into my otherself.
fuckyouwhothink​otherwise




GOAL: do something crazy.
just remember you have range tomorrow.
thats about it. it feels neutral at home- everyone in there seperate technology corners,
itslonely but relaxing. we're kindof like robots however, its sad, I enjoy it yes ill admit that. I like staying up all night on my computer.. should I change this? or leave it.


Waiting for someone to call?
no but that would be a plesent supprise.
hopefully my call for life will call tonight.
that would be a great last hurrah





Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
its funny how much we are all into our culture, i dont think anyone realizes it. when our kids look at us they'll ask us if we wore ugg boots ( the new rebocks) and american apperal clothes.


YES MY SHIRT IS FROM AMERICAN APPAREL
GO USA!





"haha I dunno he was wearing this bad ass leather jacket and a super long pony tail it was bad ass" -miranda

this was a fable about a guy she saw riding a bike on saint patricks day of 2009




What is for dinner tonight?
tussin.i
its pasta that makes your stomach feel funny and your arms wiggly


Does your ex miss you?
ive got deep roots, she does not. he loves those roots. for he does not love one of shallow waters. I know it. I felt it once. I know one day he will crave and look for them, on a hunt with confusing maps that aren't correct. he will search for those deep roots, lift me
and pull me up, and grow we will intwine together as one, and sink back into the earth for eternity


Does anyone love you?
me!!

How has this week been?
dont think
dont think
stop
stop
block it out
dont think
only think good
lastnight- easy as pie
no worries. diry messy room
came home late, rebellion
good 3.5 student. hi. bye. goodnight.
just kidding
stay up all night.
alll night stay up on myspace all night
tom whispers in her ear as youtube
tickles her eyes, "stop it you guys!!"
and thats how it went.
that is what i did.

the end.
forgot this question anyway...
-check phone
-take out headphones
-pee
-come back
ready. ...go
wait//


a ..

oh?





okay go.


k im back

"whoa dude, im way fucked up"(nicoles voice)


Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
deep roots





Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
I'm slowly drifting away from sanity






humans
humans walking around with their moving organs all their organs are warm and squirmy and jelloy and moving
. - not a completely direct quote by miranda looslee


what if there was a little pond right inside my house
right where the kitchen table it is
and the moonlight would shine threw the windows at night and would reflect on the pool.







sometimes we have intellegent conversations using puzzles and fixtures of words and phrases it is a quite interesting experience, ypu should look into that ( post note here from mark at true vision)

Does your myspace song mean anything?
its called staying up at 2 in the morning and finding this really really cool music video
that just happened to be linked to the videos arm, they are going to the acadame awards together. *paparatzi flashes


Does anyone hate you?
crazy witch lady face*


its ironic that modest mouse wrote a song called one chance
we have one chance

We have one chance.
One chance to get everything right.
We have one chance, one chance.
And if we're lucky we might.
My friends, my habits, my family, they mean so much to me.
I just don't think that it's right.
I've seen so many ships sail in,
just to head back out again and go off sinkin'.

I'm just a box in a cage.
Didn't mean to laugh,
didn't know I had,
the better part of what you said,
'cause in your head you are not home.
Didn't get the joke,
didn't mean to poke another,
just to save myself from some something, something or another one.
Well walk home.

I'm just a box in a cage.
We have one chance, to get everything right.
My friends, my habits, my family, they mean so much to me.
I just don't think that it's right.
I've seen so many ships sail in,
just to head back out again and go off sinkin'.




tears are a sad yet refreshing moment in history.
tears are the rain from the inner greenhouse in your head.
or years can be the moisture from the greenhouse outside of it
the greenhouse=​brain
or it could be a leaking water bottle







I wamt am art gallery
marina would appreciate this
art galery
white
clean
sublte





hair like heat waves

the reason im writing this all down
is because i know stoners have good idesas
i know i have good ideas when im high
we just forget to write them down
or do anything with them

Rachel- do something with your thoughts.

everything will end in a tragedy


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